Mortality

Just thinking (which I should probably do LESS of)...
I am just shy of 60 years old.
By this time of her life, my mother:
Had all her children grown and gainfully employed.
14 of her 17 grandchildren had been born, and the oldest one was 12 or 13.
Had been a very active and very respected businesswoman in her community
Had owned (and sold at a profit) 3 separate businesses,
....plus had abandoned 1 unprofitable
Had owned (and sold 6 homes)
Had already had uncounted surgeries
Seen her husband have 6 major heart attacks within hours of each other

Also,
By 10 years additional (when she was 70), my mother:
Had all of her grandchildren born
Had lost her husband of almost 50 years, after nursing him for a year
Had lost one grandson to an automobile accident
Survived Lung Cancer
Lost her dear sister
And her surviving brother
Was already showing signs of Altheizmer's

In 18 years additional--When my mom 78--
Altheizmer's had already claimed her soul, she often did not know her dear grandchildren

In 20 years additional--When my mom was 80,
She passed away on her 80th birthday after a week in a coma brought on by a stroke

So, by this reckoning,
I have a maximum of 20 years
My OLDEST grandchild will be 25 (I may live to see her married)
My current youngest grandchild(ren) will be 20.

Will I live to see:
My grandchildren graduate from high school?
-Marry?
-Go on missions?
My children happy?

What will I have accomplished with my life? What have I done noteworthy? What impact have I made in the world?

Believe it or not, I am NOT feeling sorry for myself.

At least I think I'm not! lol